It's a new year and I haven't said a word
At least not on here
Haven't written a word of poetry in a while
I'd love to say it's because all is well
Not that it's terrible
There are fantastic days and horrible ones
I'd like to say I've found other ways to
Sucessfully process everything
But that'd be a bit of a lie
I don't know why I've been away
I have been trying new things
Or old things over again
I got a Tai Chi DVD
It's agonizingly slow but I'm trying
Each day a bit more of it
It's done in a bunch of segments
So I will do 1A then 1B till I get to five
That's when all the moves come together
So I'll probably start all over again
To get them down right
I still haven't painted anything
Though I have a couple ideas
One is mixed media maybe
But then I need to find pictures of the city
And some of the forest with streams
Because that's what made up most of my
Road trip up north to Washington visually
The city on one side and the forest on the other
In the middle a long dark white spotted road
And the words my cousin said
It's Okay We'll Make This Work
I love those words so much
I'm trying to find a job
Any job I can find that will hire me
That's not true at all
I'm picky as hell most of the time
But I do apply for stuff I don't care about
I wish I could find something I want to do
So This is just going to be randomness
That's what I get for not writing for a while I guess
My cat is on my lap and it's late into the night
Nothing seems wrong nothing is quite right
It's all out of place and still where it needs to be
That's about how I feel
It doesn't need to make sense
I danced last night & I was truly happy
It doesn't take a lot to make me smile
There is a lot right now that makes me sad
But I'm doing my best to find the silver lining
In it all, in all the moments everyday
Nearly every week someone in my family goes
To the hospital for some reason
We are mortal beings only given so much time
We don't get to know how much we're given
We can't dwell on it or we'll waste it
I've been writing in a journal
Except the last two days while obsessing about
Filling out awful job applications
I've barely left the house in the last week
But I've still managed you live
I brought in the sewing machine
Sanded the long bow I was given
For my birthday along with a set of arrows
Read about an adventure to find faeries
And started typing up my Europe trip notes
I still check my phone 2-3 times a day
Hoping someone will call from far away
I check the internet all the time to see
Other people living life their way
We interact sometimes with each other
Over the interconnecting signals
Or I go out and see a familiar face in person
It's how we live in the modern world
Sometimes I take time though to sit quietly
Watching the hummingbirds feed or the Heron
Slowly stalking it's prey in murky waters
Or I listen to loud music and sing terribly
So that's how I start the New Year
With a mix of quiet and chaos
Reflection and spontaneous combustion
A bit of the same old same old
But some new lessons, mistakes and adventures
Tomorrow is just another day
But it's one more someone else isn't granted
Instead of worrying about it be grateful
Take, give, laugh, cry, be crazy and enjoy
Well that's what I hope to do
Maybe I'll finally write down those stories
I have in my head or exercise enough to
Fit again into the pants I bought in Germany
Perhaps I'll find love or he'll find me
There's even a chance I'll end this poem
The End (for now)
