Slightly buzzed frustrations...

Procrastination & Frustration

So many times I’ve quit

Before I’ve really tried

Don’t ask me the reasons

I have no answers why

Apparently I’ve accomplished enough

That I seem a failure only to myself

This constant state of self sabotage

And continuing to deny myself

What I want for no better reason

Than it doesn’t seem the right season

Not the right time to reach

For what may be within my grasp

Letting too much time lapse

Though I know deep within

That no time is perfect indeed

All we can do is hope & plan

For tomorrow, planting a seed

For what may in fact be

And make the best of today

Yet believing doesn’t change the way

That I end up living this day no matter

What I may know or understand

Yet for all of my crazy dark words

On my feet I do usually land

And if I wobble or fall then a friend

Is not very far with a hand to lend

My mind racing with ideas

But no actual direction nor

Determination to proceed

I feel like it’s just out of reach

But maybe I’m just not

Willing to take a leap

It’s a sad pathetic excuse

When falling is not the

Worst possibility out there

Stagnation 

Strange feeling like I can

Do anything but not knowing

What way to go and then

Ending up spinning out of control

Or facing the fork in the road

Only to return the way I came

Choosing to go the road I know

Knowing neither path would be wrong

Being lost is not nearly so bad

As being stagnant and learning nothing

Cola 

If a soda isn’t enjoyed chilled

Out of the can in a slightly calm state

There’s only two ways it can go

Shaken it looses all it’s fizz

In an explosive depriving burst

Or it sits and sadly it just dissipates

Both outcomes are an awful fate