New Years Begins...

Big decisions made 

The voucher is now paid

A bit more debt collected

My thoughts dissected

Over and over again

Finally I conclude to abstain

From weighing the pros and cons

No matter I have done tons

Of research, thought about it enough

Isn't it the time to sluff

Off worries & fears 

It is a New Year

Some things will indeed change 

Almost overnight as strange 

And impossible as it may seem

Others will be like a planted seed

That sits in the ground unseen

When you can not tell if anything 

Is happening because it is nothing

But slow progression and yet

It is indeed a movement and can set

So many things in motion

A sentence here or there or a notion

Of confidence growing stronger

As a paragraph becomes a page

Soon so many fears are no longer

Such a worry to you

Little things can change a blue 

Sort of day around and before you 

Know it it's an amazing year

Rain may be falling but the sky will clear

I will see it like never before soon

The shinning stars & bright moon

The beauty of sunset before nightfall

I'll share them all with you all

As well as the words that fall

From inspiration to my hands

A good lesson from the past stands

Amongst bad memories that great 

Things come not because we wait

Or rush through things, but from believing

In ourselves and following our hearts

So, I've decided to get Lasik. 

Also, that I'm not yet going to try to regiment my time for writing. I had this idea to try to schedule certain times of day. I may still. It seems so hard to get myself to sit and plug away at finishing stories I've started. I'm tired of them having beginnings and no endings. Also I decided that my whole thing of writing every day is not exclusive to the blog. So I am not going to try to get myself to blog everyday. As this is a creative outlet for me and I don't want it to turn into some weird personal diary that I share with the world. The stories I have started, those that aren't just in my head, they are on my computer already. So days I work on them I probably won't add anything here. I know this is seeming pretty diary like, but eh whatever. Point is that I am working on making some changes, or at least continuing some things I've started. I am okay if some of that change/progression happens slowly and some of it fast. It's not that I'm not looking for balance, just trying not to force things too much, nor let my self get stagnant ever again.

Other than this cold... I think I'm off to a pretty grand start. :)